Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Many Thanks ありがとう 

My performance at Miles' Cafe on Saturday went very well.
Thank you so much for coming in the cold!
And a big thanks for Miles' cafe for having me and sharing such a wonderful vibes with us.
Videos will be up soon.

By the way, I happened to get to see Ryuichi Sakomoto's concert last night.
A friend called me in last minute. By the time I found about this concert, all the tix were sold out so I was very lucky.
Only wished if I had decent sleep the night before...2-hour sleep and sitting in the confy chair in the dark concert hall with wonderful acoustics was a bit like a torture.
But, hell yes, it was a great concert.
Walking down the street after the concert, the air smelled like rain and fallen leaves.
And still in my head there was beautiful music ringing.
I was just smiling to myself like a cuckoo (as usual?).

Now I got to get ready for the photoshoot on Sunday.
Gonna pick up the dress later at Callalilai.
Maybe I should do last minute workout as well to make myself feel better?

土曜日の演奏は無事終わりました。
寒い中来てくださった方たち、ありがとうございました。
そして、マイルスカフェさんもありがとう!本当に素敵な場所です。
ビデオはもう少ししたらここにも載せます。

ところで、昨日坂本龍一さんのライブに行ってきました。
前日友達が急に誘ってくれたので。気づいたら既にチケットは売り切れてたのでラッキーでした。
しかしなぜか前の晩全然寝つけなくって2時間睡眠で出向くはめに。
あんなふかふかのイスで良い音響かつ薄暗やみのところにいるって、かるい拷問かと。
でも行ってよかった。教授、、、格好よかったわ。
終わった後、ぼーっと歩きながら、雨と落ち葉の匂いのする夜気をくんくんかぎながら、
頭の中にまだ音楽がなってて。
一人でにやにやが止まらないわたしなのでした。

さー今日は日曜の撮影のための衣装選びにcallalilaiに行ってきます。
自己満のために、ちょっと運動しようかな?どうだろう。

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

after the heil


I was walking in the park and saw this today.
It was like 65 degree out there. 
I guess there was heil the last night.
Weird weather all over the world.
Anyway, at least it was beautiful day today.

Maybe there is nothing to worry about after all.
Sometimes, I fee so sad and lonely for that I know I am who I am.
I could have chosen easier, more secure and steady life.
But I didn't, and here I am.
Even when I almost wanna quit and start over my life, 
I know, at the bottom of my heart, this is my happiness and I just have to face it.
Even if that causes me some departures and loss,
I gotta be who I am.
I know I can't be happy if I ever lie to myself about who I am.
So?
 I just keep going.
Hope to stay strong and honest.
Maybe at the end, I might get to see some miracles, yes?

Huge thanks to the park today.
 For embracing me in your huge arms.
Thanks for being there, since I was so little, whenever I had to figure out my thoughts.
I feel like I can move to anywhere as long as I have you around.
Another day awaits.
I know what I have to do. 


Monday, October 11, 2010

遠足前夜の小学生(一週間後だけど)kid who can't go to sleep on the night before the school trip

ショーまで。あと一週間、こんなにわくわくしてて眠れるのでしょうか?
遠足前夜の子供みたい。
とか言いつつ、私子供の頃遠足嫌いでおなか痛いとか仮病つかってた気がする。。。
二列で並んで遠くまで歩かなきゃ行けないことが嫌いだったのよね。
いやながきんちょだったわ〜。

さっき久々にお母さんと話した。一ヶ月ぶりくらいかな?
50代後半で、仕事が『今が一番忙しいよ〜!』と言っていた。
格好いいなあ。
ほんと、マザコンですいません。
もし私が男性だったら、絶対彼女に『そんなにお母さんが好きならお母さんと結婚すれば!?』と気持ちがられるタイプでしょう。
仕事に関して、ずっと続けることの素晴らしさ、を彼女の中に見る。
きっと仕事を始めたのも、今のあたしと同じくらいだったもんなあ。
そう言えば私を妊娠してたんじゃなかろうか。
今の彼女の年になるまで私はあと、30年くらいあるのかな?
そう思うと、ついつい行き詰まりそうになるような力が抜ける。
私もやれるだけ、こつこつやるだけだって。

それと、週末こんな素敵な事を仰ってくれた方がおりました。
私があんまりブログで自分の写真を載せないのを指摘してくださったので
や〜、そんなに自信がないし恥ずかしいんです、と返したら、
言い方こそ少し違ったけれど、
でも人って言うのは笑ってれば断然魅力的に見えるんだよ。
人の顔なんて変えようと思えば一週間くらいで変わるんだから!
と仰ってくださいました。
あと、顔って言うのはその人となりがばっちり出ちゃうんだ、と言う事も。
本当にそうだよね。
そう言ってくださった方の目がとってもきれいで、ああ、なんて説得力。
そして、思ったけど、確かに別嬪にはほど遠い私の顔ですが、
26年間付き合って来た、私だけの顔だもんね。
嫌いな訳では決してないです。
むしろ、一緒に成長して来てくれてありがたいかも。顔よ。
もし丸いのがやなら、ちょっと頑張って絞ればいいだけだしね。
笑顔、もっと増やそう!と素直に思いました。
本当に笑ってるだけど、人間の知覚もポジティブなると、池谷裕二さんも言ってますしね。
昔の人だって笑う角には福来たるって言うしねえ。

そんなわけで、今月は写真撮影もしてもらおうと思ってます。
急遽わくわくするする秋になって、嬉しいです。
皆さんもどうか美しい秋を楽しんでくださいね。
とりあえずは、土曜日に沢山のかたにお会い出来ますように!


I am already excited for the show on Saturday.
Feels like a kid who can't go to sleep on the night before the school trip.
(But I used to come up with excuses so I didn't have to go to those school trips when I was a kid..
 I used to hate it when I have to walk with my friends, holding hands and keeping the line and all that. Such a brat I was)

Just had a talk with my mom.
She, who is on her mid 50s, said that her work this moment is the busiest through her entire career.
I apologize in advance for being such a mommy's baby but I was so amazed.
I am really amazed.
I see the beauty of the persistence in her.
She was probably around my age when she started working.
She was actually carrying me inside, pregnant.
Thinking that I have 30 more years to reach her age,  it gives me so much courage.
I guess I will, too, keep working on what I should.

Also, there was someone who said  something very inspirational over this weekend.
He asked me why I don't have my pictures on my blog, and I said that I am not so confident with my looks. Quite frankly.
And there he said that just smiling makes people look much more attractive, and our faces change within   a week if we change our attitude.
And our faces represent who you truly are, in terms of personality.
Isn't that so true?
What convinced me the most was that he had such a clear beautiful eyes.
I still think I am quite far from beautiful but I honestly like my face.
It is like a best friend in the mirror who has been through everything with me.
Even if I don't like my round face, I guess I just have to work out bit more, right?
Gotta keep smile on my face from now on!
Even the old saying says that smiles bring you a luck.

So, I decided to have a photo shoot sometime this month.
Let's see how it comes out.
Hope you will have a beautiful autumn.
And I truly hope to see you on this Saturday.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Yuki and Cuties Sing, Dance, and Love@ Miles' Cafe on Oct 16th

や〜〜〜、実にひさびさのパフォーマンスです。
てんやわんやしつつも、私がどれだけ今嬉しくて楽しみにしてるかお伝え出来たら良いのにね!
今回はピアニストのMina Osakoさんを迎え、私の歌にダンサーのAkiko Henmiさんが踊りをつけてくれます。ラブな感じです。浮かれすぎて日本語がうまくかけません。なんか怪しいよなあ。
ちなみに、今回は入場料がありますが、
いらしてくれた人には、なんと1st CDがもれなくプレゼントです。太っ腹。
もう持ってる?そういう優しい人は、もう一枚は恋人友人にあげたらとっても喜ばれることでしょう!
そして、またまた、昼間なのでちっちゃい子のいるかたも是非親子でいらしてください。
秋の午後、是非リラックスしに遊びに来てくださいな〜。

I am so thrilled to announce my next show.
It's been quite a while since the last one.
I wish I could tell you how excited I am right now, even though I will be running around like nuts till the 16th.
This time, I am featuring a fabulous pianist, Mina Osako and a dancer Akiko Henmi.
Akiko will dance to my tunes. It will be a soulful show for sure. 
Plus, since we have admission for this show, I decided to give each person the 1st CD of ours!
If you already own it, well I think it will be a great gift to your friends or lovers:)
Plus, this is a daytime show so please feel free to bring your kids in case you've been missing the night performances. Come relax with us!